Death is not an ending,

but another beginning

Thursday, July 13, 2017

With both Violet and Sakhara ready to leave their bodies at the same time, I was very grateful that Dr. Amy Matthews of Frontier Wellness agreed to come to my home for this sacred event.

I spent the day preparing everything.

I opened a vortex to the higher realms, grounded it into the Earth, expanded it to include our entire property, and spun it up to just below the speed of light.

I called in many powerful and loving beings:  Mother Earth, Father Sun, the Overlighting Deva of my property, the Spirits of the Four Directions, My I Am Presence, the I Am’s of all four of my cats; the spirit guides of Violet and Sakhara, Ascended Masters with whom I have a connections, and Echo.

I requested that my energy bodies and those of all the cats be cleared, and that Sakhara and Violet bodies be especially prepared to allow them an easy and comfortable exit.

I created an alter that included photos of Violet and Sakhara, crystals, tea roses for each cat, candles, and incense.

I straightened up the house a bit so that the space would be in the best possible condition to support their sacred passage.

It isn’t easy to help our animals leave, and sometimes animals do want to move out on their own.  For these two, assistance was requested.

Sakhara had been asking to go for a number of weeks, but I delayed to be sure that she wasn’t just emotionally depressed.

I could feel that her body was breaking down now, and still she was fully present.  It was clear that she needed help.  When I made the appointment with Amy, it was only for Sakhara.

By the next day, I sensed that Violet, too, was ready.

When Amy arrived, we sat and talked for a few minutes.  I explained that I felt Violet had decided it was her time to depart, too.

Dr. Matthews is very tuned into animals, quite telepathic, and she soon sensed for herself that both cats were ready to leave.

EUTHANASIA

Sakhara wanted to be first.  I asked if she still wanted to do this.  “Yes.” Sakhara said emphatically.

We all three sat on Wee Wee pads I had placed on the carpet in front of the alter.  Sakhara was in my arms and Amy began to explain to Sakhara how we would proceed.

We were immediately interrupted by Melissa, who always wants to be the center of attention and who, despite my best efforts, still had unresolved issues with Sakhara.  That was my signal to remove her from the room.

I gave Sakhara to Amy, and picked Melissa up.  As I walked down the hall, I told her why she had to be in another room at this time.  I placed her gently there and shut the door.  I fully expected her to protest loudly and long about this, but she settled down within a minute and remained quiet throughout the euthanasia process.

Now with Sakhara again in my arms, Violet in her window seat, and Starlight wandering about, Amy injected the drug.  We had tried to give a tranquilizer first, but Sakhara refused to present a vein.  So she received the euthanasia meds which also contained a tranquilizer.

Sakhara relaxed into my arms and we all quietly waited for her to move out of her body.  It seemed to be taking a long time.  Amy and I both checked her energy several times, and found she was still very strongly present.

Finally Amy suggested we ask for help from the spirit beings I had invited.

Quan Yin stepped forward and scooped Sakhara’s spirit into her arms.  With Amy and me energetically holding the space, Sakhara’s spirit moved completely out of her physical body.

When it was clear that Sakhara had gone, we closed her eyes.  Amy took her body from me.  She placed it gently on a towel and curled it up into a comfortable position, as if Sakara were asleep.

After a few deep breaths and a glass of water each to refresh ourselves, it was Violet’s turn.

I looked at Violet.

“Ready?”  I asked her.

“Yes, definitely,” she replied.

I lifted up Violet’s very frail body.  She had stopped eating the previous day and had drunk no water this day.  I had given her electrolytes and water by dropper a number of times so that her mind would be clear enough to make the decision.

She was still somewhat dehydrated, yet her mind was very clear.

So I sat on the floor again and held her in my lap.  I checked her auric field, and she was already expanded more than 2 feet out from her body.   She was in the process of departure, yet she wanted our help.

After the injection, Violet left very quickly.  Amy took her body and placed it gently on another towel.

STARLIGHT AND MELISSA SAY GOODBYE

Starlight had been sitting in the cat tree behind me throughout the euthanasia process.   Now she got up and went to each body, sniffed each one, and then walked away.  I could feel her sadness and her acceptance that they were both gone.

Then I went to the room where I had left Melissa.  She was sitting quietly.  I invited her to join us.

Sakhara’s body was close to the hall down which Melissa had to come to enter the living room.  Amy and I watched her as she sniffed Sakhara body and then struck at it with her paw.  She left it, and then came back and hit it twice more.  Finally, she walked away and didn’t look back.

There was some terrible and very old karma between Sakhara and Melissa that Amy and I both knew about.  Amy felt that this was Melissa’s way of letting go of some of what remained of her very old and deep anger towards Sakhara.  So we let her strike the body as many times as she wanted.  Since then, Melissa has felt free to be “Top Cat” at last.

Melissa walked over to see Violet’s body.  She sniffed it, and I could feel her energy shift.  There was some real grief there.

PREPARING THE BODIES FOR BURIAL

When both the young cats were finished, I got some plastic bags that I had set aside for the bodies.  Each body was gently laid into a bag and twist-tied off.

I checked to make sure that their consciousness had gone sufficiently that it would be OK to place them in the basement freezer.

For the next few days, I burned candles and incense on the alter until it felt that the ceremony was complete.

“Om. ShantI, shanti, shanti.”

Peace, peace, peace,

Everything and everyone felt very peaceful.  I felt completely at peace within myself, and the house also felt peaceful.  Starlight and Melissa were very quiet for an entire week.

The energies of the house kept shifting around.  The spaces that Violet and Sakhara had previously filled so beautifully were now being integrated in a new way.

Starlight, Melissa, and I spent a great deal of quiet time together, and I slept quite a bit.  I hadn’t realized how stressed and exhausted I had become caring for the two elder cats who no longer needed all that energy and attention.

It was time for them to go and to be at peace, and peace is what we all received.

BURIAL

On Saturday, July 15, two days after the euthanasia ceremony, my friendly contractor, Dave, came over and dug a grave for Violet’s and Sakhara’s bodies to share.  It felt right for the bodies to be together.

Dave told me he has 14 cat graves at his home — cats belonging to everyone in his family.  So he felt very comfortable acting as undertaker for Violet’s and Sakhara’s remains.

While he dug the hole, I brought up the bodies from the basement freezer and unwrapped them.  Although their bodies were completely frozen, their fur still felt soft and silky.  It felt strange to be able to stroke their bodies and feel how soft their fur was.

Dave took some ferns growing in my yard and made a bed with them inside the hole he had dug. He placed the bodies on the ferns.  He handed me two flowers he had picked, a lily and a wild rhododenron, which I placed on their bodies inside the grave.

Then Dave said, “I don’t like throwing dirt in their faces.”  So I put one of the plastic bags on top of their heads, and Dave filled in the grave.

GRIEVING AND HEALING

Things are quiet here, now, and I feel a great sense of relief.  There had been so much chaos while I did my best to care for Violet and Sakhara’s elder needs and the needs of two young, healthy, energetic cats all at the same time.

The entire household has shifted into a higher, lighter vibration.   Their passage into spirit opened a much needed space for new things to enter.  It’s ironic, but the car I was seeking to buy showed up immediately after they decided to transition.

So all is well as Starlight, Melissa, and I grieve and reorganize our energies into a new, dynamic family pattern, letting go of the past, and being fully present in each “now” moment.

PERFECTION

There is a beautiful Sanskrit prayer that I love very much.
It’s a great teaching, and I always remember it when challenges appear.

Om.  Pernamadah, purnamidam.
Pernat purnamadacyate.
Purnasya purnamadaya
Purnamevavsisyate.
Om Shanti, Shanti Shanti.

Om.  That is perfect.  This is perfect.
From the perfect springs the perfect.
If the perfect is taken from the perfect,
the perfect remains.
Om Peace, Peace, Peace.

My dear friends are flying free, now.  They are both in healing spaces and I haven’t heard from either of them.  That’s perfect, too.