by Nedda Wittels
There is only one kind of love. All others are cheap imitations. Once you experience Divine Love, no other
love will do.
I was a young child, somewhere
between 8 and 12. I was waking up, as if from a dream, and I was
wrapped in Love... Divine Love... Love Without Conditions. I
didn't want to wake up. I wanted to stay in that Love and never
leave it. I held on to the feeling as long as I could, but then I
had to open my eyes and return to this version of reality.
I never forgot that dream - or was
it a dream at all? Maybe I really was with some higher being or
angel or God and was being given comfort and Love that I needed to
continue in this life. Perhaps I needed that experience so that
the next time I experienced Divine Love I would immediately recognize it
and know it's truth.
Of course, I can't imagine that
anyone could experience Divine Love and not immediately recognize it.
That's because I believe we have all experienced it before - maybe
before this lifetime while on the soul plane or some higher dimensional
There is a true story I read somewhere
about a family that has a little girl and then a new baby boy arrives.
Everyone is concerned that the daughter will be jealous of the baby.
Then, one day, her parents discover that she has gone into the baby's
room and is speaking softly to him. These wise parents just
listened and didn't interfere. What they heard amazed them.
Their daughter was asking the baby, "Do you remember was it feels like
to be with God? I'm starting to forget, so please help me
remember." - or words to that effect.
When I was a child I KNEW
certain things were so, not only without being told, but in defiance of
what I was told. At age 6, I rejected definitions of God as cruel,
judgmental, angry, vindictive, jealous, and hurtful. I told my
cousin, Ella, who was only 4 at the time, that her description of God
was false, and that if that was God, I didn't believe in him. So
at 6 I declared myself an atheist. This created huge
uproar in my family, because my mother worried about what her relatives
would think. This did not change my mind one iota.
Skipping ahead to 1986, on a train
headed for Manhattan, I was reading The Dancing Wu Li Masters, by
Gary Zukav. This book on the history of theoretical physics,
written for the non-physicist, proved to be the catalyst that would
propel me into the spiritual life.
In one of the experiments, two
particles that are a bonded pair are separated by electrical means and
then one is passed through a magnetic field. Since the particles
are bonded, they are the yin and yang of each other, i.e., their spins
are in opposite directions (up and down or left and right). Then,
a magnetic field is used to change the spin of one particle as it passes
through the field. To the amazement of the scientists conducting the
experiment, the second particle's spin changes SIMULTANEOUSLY with the
change in spin of the first one. There is no time lapse
whatsoever. Scientists asked the question,
"How can two of anything communicate so quickly?" (p.287) This
question caused my mind to stop.
When my mind started up again, it
was filled with more questions. "Communication?
Instantaneous communication? Faster than the speed of light
communication? Particles communicating? Telepathy?
And then I began remembering things I had read and heard from western
religions. "Everything exists in the mind of God." "God is
"Literally true?" I asked myself. If so, this was a concept
of God that resonated and felt real to me. So I found
God, if you will, in a book on theoretical physics.
This proved to be a forerunner of my
next step into spirituality. Four months later I was invited by an
acquaintance to meet a meditation master, or guru, at the Siddha Yoga
Ashram in South Fallsberg, New York. Gurumayi, also known as Swami
Chidvilasananda, was a small, Indian woman whom, I was told, gave
spiritual initiation to her followers. I went to meet her out of
curiosity and with no expectations. After chanting in Sanskrit for
45 minutes (a chant I couldn't follow or pronounce), Gurumayi gave a
talk, absolutely none of which I remember. Then began Darshan, an
opportunity to meet the master for a brief moment.
As I stood in line with perhaps
hundreds of other people inching our way forward to where Gurumayi was
sitting, I began feeling waves and waves of Unconditional Love coming
from Gurumayi and spreading outward like rays from the sun. I
recognized the palpable feeling of Divine Love. I remembered the
dream I had had as a child, and I KNEW this Love was the same energy I
had known one morning long ago and never since.
I did receive Shaktipat that day,
the transference of a spark of Divine Light from teacher the student,
and that experience did propel me along my spiritual path. But it
was remembering Divine Love that opened me to receive these energies and
made what came later possible.
Interestingly enough, the ancient
teachings on which Siddha Yoga is based are the same notions I had
"remembered" when I read Gary Zukav's book. God is everywhere.
God is, in fact, everything. There is no separation from God;
separation is an illusion. God consciousness is our true Self.
"See God in each other." "Nothing exists that is not Shiva"
(another name for God).
This morning, I am reading The
Divine Matrix, by Gregg Bradden. In Chapter 6, he writes,
...The common Western
translation [of the Our Father prayer] begins, "Our Father, who are
in Heaven," acknowledging this separation.... The Original Aramaic
texts, however, offer a different view of our relationship with our
Heavenly Father. A translation of the same phrase begins,
"Radiant One: You shine within us, outside us - even darkness
shines- when we remember."
So, how can we remember?
It is said by every
competent channel today that our Ascension process is, in large part, a
process of remembering. That we are all, in our higher aspects,
already enlightened and already ascended. In choosing to be on the
Earth in the 3rd dimensional energies, we agreed to a veil of
forgetfulness. Now is the time to remember. The Earth is a
"free will" zone. Therefore, we must ask for - set the intention
for - whatever we choose to experience.
We remember Divine Love
by asking to experience Divine Love once again, by asking to remember
what it feels like, and by asking to be a vehicle through which Divine
Love can be offered to each and every human on Earth. We set the
intention to live from our Hearts, to open our Hearts to each person we
meet or pass on the street, and to send them Divine Love no matter what
they say or how they treat us. When we set and hold that
intention, we, ourselves, will receive and experience Divine Love in all
its beauty and power and gentleness. This is how we create Heaven